The Missing Key

I just have these days: gloomy, doubt-filled, in-complacent, dark, and dirty days that just creep up without warning. It is in these moments I can’t find what it is I need to change. What is the actual problem here? Is this just some universal shift or do I need a complete life make over? The stress, disappointment, and lack of interest is unreal, but I can never pin point the problem. I can intellectually spill my guts, but emotionally I am numb. I was doing so well finding happiness in new beginnings, doing things for myself. I had 3 month long sabbatical of excitement and joy! All to end up right back here, walking around like Eyyore from Winnie the Pooh.

Life throws me lemons, and I tend to make Lemon Rita’s out of them. I turn the negative energy into positive energy that goes back out into the world, allΒ  sassy and ready to make people smile. I do well for quite sometime. I bury myself in daily life responsibilities and relaxing adventures. Most of the time I move on to a different stage of life. I’m then ready to to take on the world, yet again…

There is something different about this time. The negative energy keeps waging war inside. I feel tired, but restless. I think about changing careers or selling my home. I seclude myself and sleep. It’s like I am on auto-pilot floating through life simply waiting for some path choosing moment. I want to feel alive. I want to smile. I want to be able to meditate and wash this negative energy away!

This isn’t it for me. I have always overcome all obstacles. I have turned pain and sorrow into motivation and strength. If only I can find the auto-pilot button and turn it off. Surely, I can’t be stuck in this mode. May the good vibes, come and sweep me away.

Mystery Blogger Award

YAY!!! I am beyond words, right now! I have finally been nominated for a Blog award! Hip, hip, hooray!

A HUGE thank you is in order for The Hippy chic for nominating me! Thank you, Michelle!She writes from an honest heart and shares her struggles and triumphs with us all. A true blogger to say the least.

Check out her fun, truthful, and passionate blog page at: https://worldpress957.wordpress.com/

Now as we all know, this nomination comes with some rules:

THE RULES:

-Thank whomever nominated you and include the link to their blog.

-Put the logo/image on your blog.Β  List the rules.

-Tell your readers three things about yourself.

-Nominate 10-20 bloggers you feel deserve the award.

-Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice; including one weird or funny one.

-Notify nominees by commenting on their blog.

Which as many of you already know, I write from the mind and heart. Writing helps me find myself within all the billions of thoughts my mind creates. Although, I try my best to hide it, I wear my heart on my sleeve. However, when I write there isn’t a thought or emotion I conceal within. So, you will find a lot out about be by reading just one of my blogs. However, to share a few things you may have not known about be, I kept it simple. πŸ™‚

  1. I strive for perfection because although, perfection is not attainable, it keeps me reaching for success.
  2. I love to sing.
  3. I find personal growth necessary for happiness.

Now to answer questions from the Hippy Chic. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

1.Would you consider your family functional or dysfunctional?

Dysfunctional, but that’s what sets us apart. It keeps me busy with personal growth.

2. What are your core values?

Honesty & Kidness

3.Would you consider yourself addicted to anything?

Yes, staying busy.

4. Most embarrassing moment?

I walked straight into a glass door and fell straight back onto the floor with a bloody nose. (My family didn’t know whether to laugh or cry)

5.Do pigs, indeed, fly?

Our perception is reality.

My Nominees

Julio Jimenez

facingvictory

Nikita Mundhra

Padmasandhya

essenceoftimeblog

Rageshree

Just Another Single Dad

Ortensia

porngirl3

Downing

SonniQ

Now I ask ya’ll….

  1. Why do you blog?
  2. What is your favorite hobby?
  3. Do you prefer paper or plastic bags?
  4. If you could have any super power, what would it be?
  5. What is the quote you live your life by?