Particular Ponderings

I find myself in the same repetitive cycle. Once again, the feeling of familiarity arises during the battle of hearts. I’m choosing a different path than the many I have previously walked. I can feel wishful thinking wiggling it’s eager way to the forefront of the future. However, to walk this particular path, I must focus on the faintest of steps with no destination in mind. Sort of a let go and let it be motto… I have never understood focusing on the moment until now. It is as if I have broken free. The peace and resonance of self love is solace. I struggle with the yearning to heal those I can see are broken, but now comes the time I must revive my soul. I will always lend the one hand and forever it will be there to help direct humanity to love, but the other hand must console me. I celebrate hope moment by moment and smile knowing it will construct what is meant to be.

✌🏼💛☯️

John 14:16-17

“And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you.”

Am I Found?

Just like that… I’m back,

I’m in the purple of the flame;

The all that’s not to blame.

You might have felt as though, you gave me the fame…

The safe part is behind that plaster you value; you still look lame.

Ha, Ha! If only you could feel it,

The righteousness of my kiss.

It is having a good heart that is bliss;

I’m sorry it’s public. 🤷🏽‍♀️

I’m sure you’re slightly pissed.

Untuck you’re shirt, you never did that before,

I’m sorry, I bet, slightly, it’s a bore.

I just hope it counts,

Your name sounds good just by the way my lips feel when I say the way it sounds.

The past is a mistake made by both of us, it weighs mounds;

I’m sorry if it is me that you think you found.

🌜Love thyself to the Moon and Back🌜

You are that of a divine creation,

Do NOT live within the dictation.

They have created a dependent civilization;

This way of life disturbs the essential vibration.

Emotions are tossed and turned in the gravitation,

For we yearn for the shifts of  lunation.

Throughout the majestic rotation,

Societal life fills the soul with vexation.

Awaken  thyself to our true formation.

It is a journey of love, not that of humation.

Explore yourself through mediation,

It is in the subconscious you may enjoy a bit of liberation.

-KBJ

The Missing Key

I just have these days: gloomy, doubt-filled, in-complacent, dark, and dirty days that just creep up without warning. It is in these moments I can’t find what it is I need to change. What is the actual problem here? Is this just some universal shift or do I need a complete life make over? The stress, disappointment, and lack of interest is unreal, but I can never pin point the problem. I can intellectually spill my guts, but emotionally I am numb. I was doing so well finding happiness in new beginnings, doing things for myself. I had 3 month long sabbatical of excitement and joy! All to end up right back here, walking around like Eyyore from Winnie the Pooh.

Life throws me lemons, and I tend to make Lemon Rita’s out of them. I turn the negative energy into positive energy that goes back out into the world, all  sassy and ready to make people smile. I do well for quite sometime. I bury myself in daily life responsibilities and relaxing adventures. Most of the time I move on to a different stage of life. I’m then ready to to take on the world, yet again…

There is something different about this time. The negative energy keeps waging war inside. I feel tired, but restless. I think about changing careers or selling my home. I seclude myself and sleep. It’s like I am on auto-pilot floating through life simply waiting for some path choosing moment. I want to feel alive. I want to smile. I want to be able to meditate and wash this negative energy away!

This isn’t it for me. I have always overcome all obstacles. I have turned pain and sorrow into motivation and strength. If only I can find the auto-pilot button and turn it off. Surely, I can’t be stuck in this mode. May the good vibes, come and sweep me away.

(/)Drugs(/)

Oh, how I hate what you have taken,

Leaving behind the  lifeless.

Strength is forsaken,

For the pain caused seems to be silenced.

 

I want you to stop, now!

You have taken the one’s with bright smiles.

My family and friends are mine, for you I will not endow.

Faith and strength is needed for these trials.

 

It is my mission to do as you have done to the innocent,

For it is you I will ruin!

You have no power, it is in your execution I will be vigilant.

Love will win because it is something you do not pursue in.

-KBJ

 

This or That? – Tag you’re it! :)

Now that my blog has grown a bit, I get to mingle!

Thank you, Superheroes009 (https://superheroes009.wordpress.com) for tagging me in this fun post!

I hope that many people get a chance to check out our fun pages. I’m excited to see how this goes. I think it is a great idea to share some of our quirky sides and interact with one another. Thank you for sharing this awesome opportunity to mingle.

I want to first warn you all that I am high indecisive, so I will apologize for my answers ahead of time. Ha Ha!

Let’s do this, ya’ll! 🙂

Rules

1. Thank and tag the person that has tagged you
2. Attach the tag photo
3. Answers the “This or That” questions
4. Tag 10 – 20 friends.

Question and Answer

1. Q: Dog or Cat?
   Dog, man’s best friend, duh! But, I have to settle for a Cat because I am never home. However, can they be potty trained to use the toilet?
2. Q: Netflix or YouTube?
   Netflix, for sure!
3. Q: Phone call or text?
   Text messages for this chicka, I  love to write…
4. Q: Toast or Eggs?
   Eggs, who actually eats toast?
5. Q: Cardio or Weights?
   Cardio, I heard it burns more calories…
6. Q: Facebook or Twitter?
   Facebook. I can get more creative.
7. Q: Ice cream cone or Snow cone?
   OMG! I haven’t had a Snow cone in years. Let’s go get one, Stat!
8. Q: Mobile Games or Console Games?
   Neither. Not a game fan.
9. Q: While walking: Music or Podcasts?
   Music, of course. I love me some Journey. ❤
10. Q: iOS or Android?
    I Phone! IOS, all the way. Just take a bite of the Apple, you know you wanna.
11. Q: Cake or Pie?
    Pie, under one condition… Must have graham cracker crust. Yum!
12. Q: Swimming or Sunbathing?
    Both. Can’t have one without the other.
13. Q: Big Party or small Gathering?
    Small Gathering, less pressure.
14. Q: New clothes or New Phone?
    New clothes. I’m going shopping. Who’s coming with me?
15. Q: Rich friend or Loyal friend?
    Loyal friend. “Momma didn’t raise no fool”! I can make my own money, but loyalty is rare these days,
16. Q: Football or Basketball?
    Who really picks one or the other? That’s why the seasons are at different times, ha ha!
17. Q: Nice car or Nice Home Interior?
    Nice Home, cars are overrated.
18. Q: What’s worse: Laundry or Dishes?
    They are both equal in the matter of having to put the clothes or dishes away. Or is there a machine that does that these days?
19. Q: Jogging or Hiking?
    Heck yeah, I love hiking!
20. Q: Bath or Shower? Shower
21. Q: Sneakers or sandals? Sandals, who REALLY needs shoes, at all, though?
22. Q: Glasses or contacts?
    Contacts, because I buy too many cute pairs of sunglasses.
23. Q: Hamburger or Taco?
    Is it Taco Tuesday, yet?
24. Q: Couch or Recliner?
    Recliner, I don’t wanna share. 😛
25. Q: Online shopping or Shopping in a store?
    Online, saves on gas.
26. Q: Email or Letter?
    Letter, I love penmanship. ❤
27. Q: Passenger or Driver?
    Driver, if i know where I am going. Passenger if it’s unfamiliar territory.
28. Q: Tablet or Computer?
    Computer, something about the click and clack of keys on a key board. 🙂
29. Q: Intelligent or Funny?
    Funny, I’m a good teacher…
30. Q: Car or Truck?
    Car, zoom…zoom.
31. Q: Blue or Red?
    Black…
32. Q: Money or Free Time?
    Free Time, money can’t buy happiness. Tried it, didn’t work.
33. Q: Amusement Park or Day at the Beach?
    How about an amusement park on the beach? Now we are talking…
34. Q: At a movie: Candy or Popcorn?
    Both, let’s not be greedy, now.
35. Q: Pen or pencil?
    Pen, I hate pencils.
36. Q: Toilet paper: Over or Under?
    Under, it’s a standard rule! Com’n people. ha ha!
37. Q: Cups in the cupboard: Right Side Up or Up side down?
    Right side up, they’re already dry…
38. Q: Pancake or Waffle?
    Chocolate chip waffle toasted with peanut butter. You’re welcome! 🙂
39. Q: Coke or Pepsi?
    Mountain Dew or Monster, Yuck.
40. Q: Coffee Cup or Thermos?
    Coffee Cup
41. Q: Blinds or Curtain?
    Blinds, for sure.
42. Q: Train or Plane?
    Plane, although I haven’t been on a train.
43. Q: Phone or Tablet?
    Is this a trick question?
44. Q: Iced Coffee or Hot Coffee?
    Iced.
45. Q: Meat or Vegetables?
    I like meals that have both, just saying…
46. Q: International Vacation or New TV?
    International Vacation, tv is overrated.
47. Q: Save or Spend?
    Save
48. Q: Honesty or Other’s Feelings?
    Honesty
49. Q: Coffee or Tea?
    Tea
50. Q: TV or Book?
    TV
51. Q: Movie at Home or Movie at the Theater?
    Theater unless you want me asleep on the couch. ZzZzZ
52. Q: Ocean or Mountains?
    Ocean, the waves are hypnotic!
53. Q: Horror Movie or Comedy Movie?
    Comedy, I’m afraidy cat.
54. Q: City or Countryside?
    Countryside
55. Q: Winter or Summer? Summer
56. Q: Mac or PC? PC
57. Q: Console Gaming or PC Gaming?
    Console
58. Q: Soup or Sandwich?
    Sandwich, bring me the meat!
59. Q: Card Game or Board Game?
    Card game, ugh! I miss Spades.
60. Q: Camping or Binge Watching Shows at Home?
    Camping
61. Q: Working Alone or Working in a Team?
    Alone
62. Q: Dine In or Delivery?
    Delivery
63. Q: Sweater or Hoodie?
    Hoodies, make my life!
64. Q: Motorcycle or Bicycle?
    Motorcycle
65. Q: Book or eBook?
    Book, in hand….
66. Q: When sleeping: Fan or No fan?
    Fan, ceiling only!
67. Q: TV Shows or Movies?
    TV shows. My adhd won’t let me watch a movie. lol

I tagged the following people to participate in this fun-filled adventure with the rest of us. If you are not one that likes the Blogger Awards or The This or That participation, my apologies. I want you to know that I only nominate you because I find your page intriguing and you have supported me among my journey. So, know that I only nominate you out of support for your amazing talents. If you wish not to participate, I understand, but please be flattered, because your talent should be celebrated! 🙂

ArtsyChic Creations

The Colour of Madness

Silver Screenings

Byungafallgren

Dave Gardner

3sistersabroad

The Controversial Indian

Paul Rados

Scott OConnor

Valentine’s Fall

I’m excited to see all your answers and get to know you better!

Stay trippy, hippies! ❤